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When I’m Older, I hope to be…..
When I’m Older, I want to…
When I’m Older, I will…
I have never been able to finish these sentences. Looking into the future has been so hard for me lately. It wasn’t always hard. I always had goals in mind. These goals have changed a lot over the years, but at every stage of my life, I knew where I wanted to be when I was older. But now, for the first time in my life, I don’t know what I want to do. But in a weird way, that is a lot more comforting to me than before. When I was planning to be a dermatologist, it worried me a lot. When I changed my mind and pursued education to be a teacher, I was even more stressed out. It’s harder to have a planned out future and stick to that path. Now that I am heading into Business with no plan in mind, I feel rather content. I get to explore my options with no finish line in sight. Rather than trying to run to the end and win, I get to slowly walk. I get to take my time and see exactly what I enjoy in life. I get to double check my decisions and make sure that whatever I end up doing is truly the right thing for me.
I was only eighteen when I entered university. I was so naive and clueless. I had been so sheltered in high school. How was I supposed to know which path to pursue the minute I was set free from high school? When I switched my faculty three times, people thought that I was just trying everything out. They thought I wouldn’t stick with Business either. They still make jokes that I’m going to switch majors again. But I couldn’t be happier. I finally realize why it took me three chances to get it right. Now that I’m in the School of Business, I couldn’t imagine being in any other faculty. For once I don’t feel sad about school. I’m not stressed, I’m not nervous thinking about the future. I’m so excited to be learning and I’m even more excited to graduate and get a career with my degree. I finally feel like I’m right where I belong and that’s a really good feeling to have.
I don’t think it’s necessarily wrong to be unsure of your future at this point in your life. I used to think that I would have it all figured out at this age. But I know middle aged adults who still haven’t figured it out. They’re just living life and taking what life throws at them. When I get stressed about my future, I just have to remember that I’m only twenty. Even though I’m technically an adult, nothing is forcing me to act like one just yet. I have all the time in the world to explore my options and pick the path that’s best suited for me. And that’s kind of a really exciting concept.