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The day has finally arrived. I am officially twenty. I am starting a new decade of life. I am leaving behind my teenage years. This is all a very strange concept. When I first started this blog, I was sixteen, almost seventeen. I couldn’t imagine being eighteen, let alone twenty. I was in grade 11 and so naive about the world. Throughout these 3 and a half years of blogging, I have been able to call this blog my time capsule. You all have seen me grow up over the years. I’d like to think it’s not just my style that has changed. I’d like to think that I have changed as a person, for the better.
I’d especially like to think that I’ve gotten a bit more mature. I have never been one to be mature. I’ve always been the loudest, most obnoxious out of my friends. I’m a little too emotional, a little too irrational. I don’t think mature will ever be the word to describe me. However, I hope I’ve gotten a little less immature in the years leading up to now.
Maturity isn’t growing up. Maturity isn’t being an adult. Maturity is going school supply shopping and picking a black and blue pen and avoiding the pink polka dot feather pen even though you reach for it momentarily. Maturity is looking someone in the eye and telling them why you can’t forgive them even though it would be easier to forget the hurt. Maturity is respecting yourself, remembering your morals, keeping your values close to your heart. And most of all, maturity is making the right choices in life. They might not seem like the most beneficial ones at the time or be exactly what you want, but as I’ve supposedly matured, I’ve found that doing the right things in life is what separates the immature youngsters from the grown-ups.
So, as I enter the realm of adulthood, I will do so with optimism and positivity. I have to admit I wasn’t the most excited about turning twenty. I thought my personality and lifestyle best suited one of teenager status. But I was wrong. I couldn’t be more ready to tackle the challenges that my newfound adulthood will bring. My childhood and teenage years held some of the happiest moments of my life and I can only hope that my young adult years will bring plenty more. Here’s to another decade of growing.
When I’m Older, I Will Wear Whatever I Want.
-xx Tay
